MEMOIR

Growing up, Anna Wharton was frightened of her grandmother. She was the archetypal ‘madwoman in the attic’: confined to a corner, speaking gibberish, who, according to family lore, had once been committed to an asylum. Anna could never understand the gentle care and devotion her own mother bestowed on a woman who seemed unable to love her back.

Many years after her death, Anna sets out to uncover the truth of her grandmother’s madness, and how it defined the women who came next. She travels to the old Victorian asylums, pores over records and family photographs, and turns to the classics of literature – from The Bell Jar to The Ha-Ha and Girl, Interrupted – to fill in the gaps.

I Made You Up Inside My Head is Anna’s mission to make sense of how women like her grandmother were treated inside the institutions that promised to make them well. At once blazing and tender, it is a daughter’s careful excavation of a painful inheritance – and her fearless attempt to re-examine the stories that shape us.

I Made You Up Inside My Head – On Mothers and Madwomen will be published in February 2027. You can pre-order it here. 

Beautifully written, intellectually rewarding and profoundly moving, I Made You Up Inside my Head is a literary triumph... It gave me an entirely fresh perspective on maternal mental health... it’s an incredibly important book for our time. This is a highly original and incredibly timely book, full of insight and beauty, which moved me, frequently to tears. Both shocking and beautiful, I really loved it.
Clover Stroud
Author of The Wild Other, The Red of My Blood, My Wild and Sleepless nights
An astonishing quest... takes a tragic family destiny and paints a broad, fierce and funny, nuanced and shocking tableau about mental health. This page-turning, beautifully-written book made me gasp out loud, chuckle and cry. Ultimately, Wharton triumphs gloriously in her aim of taking her grandmother out of the asylum.
Susanna Crossman
Author of Home Is Where We Start, and The Orange Notebooks
One of the best memoirs I have read this year... lyrical, compelling and necessary in its exposure of the brutality of psychiatric medicine in history. Wharton takes on the role of detective to piece together a life interrupted, to make sense of her grandmother, and all she lost after a stint in the asylum... Be prepared to be shocked and deeply moved
Lily Dunn
Author of The Sins Of My Father and Into Being